good bye my auntie...

i've lost my auntie... seven days already now...

it was sad..

but the strange is.. i don't cry at all... as if she already passed away for along time...

i missed her... love her....

I hope she will be alright in another life there...

Good bye my auntie... i love you so...

two past six pm

i'd rather be gone then strangle here in the middle of nowhere....

upset about nothing....

confused about nothing...

damn about nothing....

wrinkled about nothing...

dear God.... I'm totally lost out here....

please help..?!

full of crapped...

have you seen my girl? i haven't found her yet.. is it you? or is it someone far away just thinking of me??

have you seen my girl? or someone who's life was praying to find her mate...

I'm worried about my thoughts now.. I'm worried about things that never happen and only happened in my mind...

do i so naif to ever think like that? or do i so full of crapped just talking and blabbering about it all the time??
still hoping... and believing... have you ever think like i did?

the chemistry that I haven't found

everyday i'm doin' this routine...
wake up in the morning... take a bath... eat my breakfast... starting my two wheels engine...up..up.. and away... passing by the usual route from my house to the office... three red lights i have to pass.. racing with others two-wheeled and four-wheeled engine.. sniffing bad exhaust from it...
roaming the engine wheel... and by the second i already in the office..
Doin' daily work... sittin' in front of the computer and start to get everythin' done perfectly..
and in the end of the day it's time to me to go home riding my motorcycle again....

gosh.. i feel like i'm so thankfull of my life now...

but wait.....

i think there's something missing... yeah...
i do think i miss the feeling of being missed from someone..
yeah.. i do feel like my conciences said to me everyday...

"man... your life is perfect now... but man... do you have someone to share your beautiful life like these..? c'mon... man... find your lover girl immediately.. "

hehe... it tickles me... for sure i want to fall in love again... i really do...
but what can i do now... i just haven't found her... at least not yet...

i dreamt about it everyday.. that someday she will emerge out of the blue and suddenly we jump into each other and i see alot of sparkle on her wonderfull eyes.. the chemistry that i had forgotten along..along time...

should i wait for one more year to feel that kind of experiences....?

i guess i must be patient and live this life as usual... plain.. alone.. and forsaken...

becoming of what you are...

its really hard to understand about mylife..

too plain to live with.. and too pathetic to describe.. one second you appear like an angel to someone but one second you appear like full of rubbish to anybody.

well i did my chores, and i don't regret it now.

for some of you who thinks that your life was a mess... think again. Because you should realize that it wasn't so bad after all.

what you did in the past was a lesson for present and future.

should you change? don't ... don't change yourself for the sake of happinness of everyone, change it as you want it to be like.